New ish from adam micheal

My first shoot in like a month with the rockin dude from upheavel.

wishin i was so paid

Not because im greedy, but because im restless. I just wan't success so bad I can taste it. I wan't to be who I was always meant to be, because, I was meant to be a success god hasn't blessed me with so much for me to be anything less. So ya, I got some stuff im gonna work on this summer, but after that, im pretty much gonna cut loose and bust my ass work my ass off, until I get where I want to be, and where im meant to be the top. Some people settle for average for mediocre thats not me, not from my friends not from my family not from my future husband wherever he is, and ESPECIALLY not from me. I refuse to live off of anyone else but myself, and I have a restless fire inside me that I dont think will let me. So Im done wishin' and am ready to start doin I will be paid.

So tired

I'm so tired of being let down and at times it feels I have my whole life. Sometimes I get tired of being the only one in my corner. The only one I can count on. My own cut man cleaning up my scrapes and bruises. It gets so exausting. I just want people I can count on in my life. I don't have that and at times it hurts so much to feel so alone so often. No one knows me the way I need them to. No one is really there. It gets to a point where what is it all worth. I'm just so tired

got her mind right

My goals in life are pretty simple be happy and be as successful as possible. I wanna be this girl:

" ooh there's somethin about
kinda woman that can do for herself
i look at her and it makes me proud
theres somethin about her

theres somethin oh so sexy about
kinda woman that dont even need my help
she said she got it she got it no doubt
there's something about her"

or a be an independent woman who can buy my own bottles. Thats what I want , ive learned that you cannot depend on anyone but yourself, so do your best work your hardest to be as much of a diva as you can so you don't have to answer to anyone.

Hopefully I get a good job doing something in marketing, its always been important to me to be a career woman, and now that im wrapping up school its starting to get to be do or die time. It would be nice if I could get some success with modeling, not huge success I realize but at the same time, im gonna try to touch the sky.

I wanna be the girl who has worked for everything she owns, the girl who earns the respect of those around her. Thats who I wanna be.

The woman im trying to be

I crave success, i want to be miss indepe

Weird when my horoscopes right

Gemini

May 21 - June 21

There may be a great deal of conflict in your life today, dear Gemini, and different people and situations seem to be pulling you in all directions. Your sanity is being put to the test. Try not to be too stubborn, for this will only cause more tension among you and the situations that you encounter. You have the potential of stressing out over the smallest things. Try to avoid this scenario if you can.

even the stars know how fucked i am

if you cant take the heat get the fuck out the kitchen

5 weeks until im out of this hell hole

Current mood: bitchy
Category: Life




I move from spokane. Beginning of May. Cannot wait, to be out of this dramatic ass town. When i go home the only drama i have is with my mom. thats it period. cant wait to get back to that, better then feeling like no one has your back or seeing how much people change. not looking foward to living at home, my mom and i pretty much fight like sisters, multiple times a day. but hey when thats happening i go chill w/nae or pers and forget all about it. pick your battles ppl there are very few things worth fighting over. i try to let shit go let it roll off my back, what are you gonna do?

and if you gonna pick a fight, make sure you hands are clean, dont pull bullshit and get mad at ppl when you do the same things. people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones. and if you do decide your battles worth it dont be surprised if i point out other times, you did the same thing to me, often alot worse. dont be surprised if i point out your double standard, and get this when you were pulling that shit, i let it roll of my back, you should too think about it, think about if its really worth it esp with someone you know is leaving for good.

ha you would think since im leaving id be kicking it hard, on the contrary ive gotten in fights with pretty much everyone of my friends here which is like 10, with the exception of eisis ramey and angel and robert haha.

So whatever im over it. counting down the days where im back where i belong spokane was never the place for me and it just becomes more and more obvious everyday.

As ron burgandy would say

go fuck yourself spokane.

Why am I on here?

Well, hmm with the advent of twittering and other social networking site eveyone has their own blog or whatever. I have actually been blogging off and on for several years now about 5 years. Most of my blogs were on my myspace, and others were on a livejournal account i created for my blogs too personal in nature. So here is the happy medium. a blog that is not exclusive to my friends like my myspace, and one that is not just for me. A place for me to write about relevant things and share them with others whether I know you personally or not. Growing up I always had a love for journalism. However in college I never pursued it, and instead opted for Public Relations and Psychology, don't get me wrong both majors I love dearly but, I come to miss writing, especially in the raw purity that is blogging. No grades, typos, allowed ect ect. So anyways, if just one of you reads this or 100 or whatever just thought id throw in my contribution to the blogging community. Thanks so much.

Peace Love and Happiness

Aiko

Monogamy and Evolutionary Psych

So im a psych major, and we learn all kinds of crazy sad little tidbits about humanity. Like how republicans have a lower stress tolerance haha, or how rats who are licked more as babies are more secure adults, and all kinds of fun uneccessary facts.

Evolutionary psych has been popping up all over my life, so I thought Id write a little about it. In class, in conversation, in bad ashley judd movies....One which I have briefly learned in psych class and from one of my fav ppl ever, is that monogamy could be genetic. Yup you heard it, genetic. There is such a thing as a monogamy gene, and only 5% of the population has it. This is according to an up and coming study which I will most definitely cite when it come out.

So 5%- 5 out of every 100 guys (unfortunately i believe this study only focuses on men but im sure women have like 5x the amount of the monogamy gene anyway) It can even be seen in animals, there are only a small handful of animals that will mate with only one mate for life case and point lobsters as in ross is rachels lobster. Let reverse that 95% of the male population is missing this gene!

So its no wonder divorce rates sky rocket, monogamy is just not in mosts genetic code.

5 out of every hundred! that miniscule, thats the house always wins odds. thats betting that george mason will win the ncaa tourney odds. That the cowboys will ever win the super bowl again odds, that you wont get a nasty lemon skittle in your next handful of skittle's odds.-segway don't you hate it when that happens, you grab a handful of skittles or sour patch kids and you always get the freaking lemon or lime flavored ones anyways, your odds of that not happening, are better than finding someone with the monogamy gene.

This gene is made even less apparent with the current cultures obsession with single life, which i personally think isnt a bad thing, who wants to settle down at 25 anymore? gives me stomach pains just thinking about it.

So I dunno maybe angelina and brad have the right idea? Date as long as freaking possible before getting married it will save you alot of money in the long run : ) haha jk

but i just found this profoundly intriguing.